It's amazing how emotional waves shift beneath us so quickly and how important it is to remember that we inherently float. After such a beautiful outpouring of support, I immediately went to record for two days in a gorgeous lil spot just north of SF and within the breadth of a day I was noticing hints of old familiar shadows dancing on the walls and creeping alongside the cables on the studio floor. Thought's like "don't eff up!", "am i worth this much faith?" and "everyone's gonna realize I'm some kinda fake" kept peaking their head into the session and by the time I returned to LA I felt I'd been worked over somethin raw.
Despite this component of my experience there, I feel I did my best to be present and interacted with this self sabotaging facet of my self to a lesser degree than ever.
What made this easier was the tool of watching the shadows more than identifying with them and in my observation I saw again that they were born out of a desire to feel safe, to protect me from the unknown...
As these songs rose from a space very close to the bone, that too has been a factor in this medicine journey. I'm grateful to say that they're being birthed in divine timing and that I'm choosing to stay out of their way and allow them to live free of me.
Birthing is such a magical process and though as a man I will never know that first hand, I imagine it's uncomfortable to say the least yet simultaneously the most visceral experience of beauty one can have in a lifetime.
I know I'm a part of the penultimate stage of creation on this earth and I fully recognize the possibility and potential y'all have seen in this music that comes through my person. I'm so grateful for your reflection of Divine Love and committed to remembering that this Love is ceaseless and everpresent.
Looking forward to sharing what we deliver in a couple months.
Love Y'all,
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