Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Many moons ago, roughly 4 years worth to be precise, I was working at the Apple Store in a bizarre outdoor mall within the lone star state. Something was off, but I couldn't put my finger on it and when I awoke to what it was, a deep feelin of numbness that had crept into my being, I bucked like a wild horse being broken and jumped toward anything I saw as a way out. Little did I know that in that month I was just a landmark forum and a skydive jump away from quitting my precious job and going to burning man. It was on the playa that I was inspired to delve into songwriting again and open up my heart to a new depth of experience.... Fast forward through a free fall of flying in love over distance, a dengue riddled attempted escape from the fates to Mexico and an idealistic heart-driven move from TX to CA in my lil red truck and I had just completed the first chapter of a new life, a life that I was consciously choosing. Like Russian nesting dolls, that chapter lives within the next of my tumultuous landing in LA and the subsequent gypsy lifestyle that emerged from the collapse of what I once thought was my reason for coming to California, that particular flavor of love that knocks our socks off when we allow it.
Out of the ashes, I surfed couches and lived out of my truck for a spell, writing and reflecting on how I'd come to be in such a place in my life. Then came the boat, dilapidated and empty and another chapter began....
Forgive me if i'm rambling today but I just saw the interconnect between all the moments up till now so clearly after my CD Release this past Sunday. How what I once thought was the end of my world became the birth of my real life, and how this life is literally more amazing and magical than the one I had previously imagined times a trillion. All the discomfort and heartache has been and will continue to be one of the greatest gifts I've ever received, for without their influence none of this would be possible as it is right now.
Lately I feel a great turning of the page and I make up that I'm not the only one who feels this.
I'm grateful to celebrate and share the sensation of eras ending with this new EP and I trust that years from now we'll be able to look back with limitless compassion at all of our perfect mistakes.
So Grateful for all that came to witness the resolution of so many chapters this weekend and So Inspired to co-create what will be shared next.
Love Y'all, p
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