So Close....

Above is the graphic for the new record courtesy of the extremely talented Colin Gil.

After what seems like an eternity, this EP is almost ready to be free of me to live in the world on it's own. So many emotions surround this imminent release that it's hard to speak more often than not but I can and will say that I'm grateful for the overflow of patient support that has allowed this record the resources and time to grow into what it has become. SO GRATEFUL for Robin Livingston for helping me produce this and giving me the space to lose my mind and find my heart time and time again during the process. As I continue to learn the art of capturing a songs spirit and working with more talented sorcerers of sound I know things will continue to grow and develop.

In the words of Leonard da Vinci, "Art is never finished, only abandoned." 

I'm offically walking away from this with love in my heart. 

OnlyLove and DeepGratitude, p

Facing what goes bump in the night

Stepping into November, I'm feelin called to check in about where I am in this rapidly changin world.

In that my life has recently entered another tunnel of shadow work, it has become increasingly clear that the archaic model of duality that once motivated my actions is decaying and giving way to something deeper. En route to this newness, I've recently noticed my emotional body return to that of an anxious little boy that's afraid he isn't worthy of receiving what he wants. This boy is no stranger, this boy is the part of me that has been running through the back of my mind undermining dreams and relationships for all of my adult life.

So why am I telling you this?

I've come to believe that before I allow myself to move forward I must first resolve the issues from which I ran, forgive the parts of myself that I projected and vilified, and merge this anxious child with the lovingly confident man I've grown to know.

When the changes I wish to create in this world remain, they will have survived because all of me was complete with what was, not 99%.

So much is happenin on our marble in the dark and the Occupy Movement appears to me as the more visible components of a massive underlying shift. A deep restructuring that many of us have called forth for ages is now birthing itself and this process is not obligated to be comfortable.

Having participated in several of these local Occupy events, I can say I'm grateful to contribute to their expansion as I believe they are some of the first waves of a new kind of revolution.

The one thing I wish to infuse into the Occupy message is this.

Let us be conscious in our dialogue and shift from an US vs THEM conversation into an US conversation. We have such a gift before us.. To receive this gift fully and pass it down to our posterity, we will first be faced with stripping the caustic threads of blame and separation from the blanket of thought that fosters all of our tomorrows. The most courageous of us will begin with themselves.

This is everyone's time to show up, All of Everyone.

So, in this moment I call forth the allowance of as much humor and love imaginable to permeate this experience as I reclaim full empowered accountability for all that is of my life by merging the darkest aspects of my past with the brightest visions of my future.
In the meantime, I'm taking it easy on the kid within and observing him with compassionate eyes.

Lookin forward to gettin this record out soon...

Love Y'all,

p

I Apologize

Okey Dokey Gang!

I Apologize for falling out of integrity with my own word regarding this album.

I promise the record is literally being mastered as I write this and everyone that donated to make this record a reality will be getting some download love by the middle of this month.

This EP has been such a learning experience for me and I'm grateful to feel myself moving forward both as an artist as as a producer. I'm honored by everyone's support and beyond appreciative for y'alls patience.  Budgeting time and money have been such a growth area for me and I trust that the lessons I've learned this time around will help expedite the next record tremendously.

I look forward to wrappin up this loose end in my brain and moving forward.
So much awaits....

OnlyLove,
p

Returning from a coconut milk bath....

Hey Y'all,

Admittedly I fell out of integrity with my commitment to blog once a month but I'm now back in the saddle with a functioning laptop. This initial re-entry into the blogosphere will be brief as the completion of my new EP has me feeling a bit restless, all the more reason to meditate before I sit down to write the next one.

In short...

Though I know we're behind our first timeline, the record is sounding fantastic and I look forward to getting it out to y'all!
All that donated can expect a digital download by the middle of next month and hard copies by October's end.
We're shooting for an official release in November.

I've promised myself to write again soon and this I will do.

In the meantime, let us all dissolve yet another batch of old imagined fears
with the passing of Elenin into the depths of this universe.

Love Y'all,
p

Flowing between two banks of studio time...

It's amazing how emotional waves shift beneath us so quickly and how important it is to remember that we inherently float. After such a beautiful outpouring of support, I immediately went to record for two days in a gorgeous lil spot just north of SF and within the breadth of a day I was noticing hints of old familiar shadows dancing on the walls and creeping alongside the cables on the studio floor. Thought's like "don't eff up!", "am i worth this much faith?" and "everyone's gonna realize I'm some kinda fake" kept peaking their head into the session and by the time I returned to LA I felt I'd been worked over somethin raw.

Despite this component of my experience there, I feel I did my best to be present and interacted with this self sabotaging facet of my self to a lesser degree than ever.
What made this easier was the tool of watching the shadows more than identifying with them and in my observation I saw again that they were born out of a desire to feel safe, to protect me from the unknown...

As these songs rose from a space very close to the bone, that too has been a factor in this medicine journey. I'm grateful to say that they're being birthed in divine timing and that I'm choosing to stay out of their way and allow them to live free of me.
Birthing is such a magical process and though as a man I will never know that first hand, I imagine it's uncomfortable to say the least yet simultaneously the most visceral experience of beauty one can have in a lifetime.

I know I'm a part of the penultimate stage of creation on this earth and I fully recognize the possibility and potential y'all have seen in this music that comes through my person. I'm so grateful for your reflection of Divine Love and committed to remembering that this Love is ceaseless and everpresent.

Looking forward to sharing what we deliver in a couple months.

Love Y'all,
p

Wrappin up and Movin on

As some of you may know, I began workin on a second EP last Sept after returnin from burnin man. Titled "Leave on the Lights" it started as a set of songs that guided me through the greatest shift I've known this lifetime. After some preproduction at a very generous friends studio, I wound up cutting all five tunes in a single day this past December with Mona Tavakoli and Becky Gebhardt of Raining Jane. These magical women held such a beautiful space for these songs to be born into, a space the EP floated within till I got the download that it was time to complete it. Initially discouraged by a perceived lack of funding, I was inspired to generate a fund raising campaign to bring these songs out to share with the world after watching my friends successes on indie go go and kickstarter. The final piece of the puzzle came into place when a very talented friend, Peter Harding, volunteered to make a video to promote the campaign. This video is such a gift, words cannot convey the gratitude I have for it's contribution.
We are now on day two y'all and I've got good vibrations surrounding what's to come.
Scope out the video and the campaign here!!!

Love and Blessings,
p

Thoughts on what is now

The universe showed me a metaphor that really brought it all home for me as I waited in my car yesterday. Though it was rather disturbing, I would like to share it with you all now and if you know yourself as one who is easily upset, please do not read any further.

I saw a boy hugging a leashed dog on an empty street corner.
The dog was restless and the boy held the animal harder.
The boy stood up and tied the free end of the dog's leash around his own neck. Inevitably, the dog began to move and the boy cried out yet did not untie the leash which was now effectively strangling the boy. In fact, the boy turned to face the opposite direction of the dog's motion and began kicking and screaming as the dog, increasingly alarmed by the boys flailing and yelling, moved faster and faster. Eventually, after almost a whole city block, the boy untied the improvised noose and beat the dog violently with it.

There is nothing that we fear and hate that did not begin with ourselves.

May we now look into our own roles, invest in life and bring our forces home to renew and rebuild this country.
It all starts and stops here.

Let there be peace,
p