Blessed words...

Today is MLK day, he really was such a beautiful man. This country... this world would not be what it is had he not graced the stage of our human experience with his presence. So many of his words resonated with such love and grace, "Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it."

Blessins to the Being behind these words, the Lover in us All,
p

Broadcasting Love

While thinkin of a dear friend, I discovered this song tonight and found it too beautiful not to share. Though the pic is a lil newage cheese in aesthetic, I really feel this music as medicine and an owl flyin out of a blast of golden heart wind is effin awesome. From the little amount of '12 I've lived, which has already felt like a month and a day, I've observed a lot of deep pain very up close and personal.  My wish is that all the unexpected and inevitable pain passing through our lives this year isn't taken for granted and that we use the fiercest firestorms of pain to burn through our old familiar thoughts of weakness and insecurity. This year, let's build stronger, more expansive structures of beingness, castles and temples that we may graciously move into as the playful kings and queens we were born to be.

if so inspired, listen to this song and broadcast trillions of lumens worth of love to all you know that could use some of the good stuff we're made of in this moment.

Shine on,
p

Surfin into the unkown...

a baja view courtesy of the ever dexterous tawney bevaqua

Well...

Here we are it's 2012 and things are unfolding faster than a lawn chair for a graduation ceremony. We have certainly passed through many experiences and now, just beyond the outer threshold of this passage comes the unknown. As for me, I spent the holidays in my second 10 day Vipassana course (in case you're wondering it doesn't get any easier the second time around) and promptly left the depths of my own mind for the saturnalia of a Baja new years with chosen family. Though I wouldn't recommend having only a 11 hour car ride to decomp and acclimate between two such drastically different environments, the dynamics broke me open in new ways that I trust are part of a greater strengthening. Despite the overwhelming breadth of emotions at times between high and low tides down there, I had the best day of surfin ever that first foggy morning in the water and as some of you may know by now I LOVE FOG.

So as we all move onward through the collective fog that humanity seems to be paddling through,  I'm committed to opening up and doing the work my loves, you have my word and that's about all I really got. Thanks for checkin in and it's my intention to share more of who I am and what I'm going through this year with y'all.

in the meantime...

May all beings be Happy,
May all beings be Liberated,
May all beings be Free.

Love,
p



 

Turning the page

Many moons ago, roughly 4 years worth to be precise, I was working at the Apple Store in a bizarre outdoor mall within the lone star state. Something was off, but I couldn't put my finger on it and when I awoke to what it was, a deep feelin of numbness that had crept into my being, I bucked like a wild horse being broken and jumped toward anything I saw as a way out. Little did I know that in that month I was just a landmark forum and a skydive jump away from quitting my precious job and going to burning man. It was on the playa that I was inspired to delve into songwriting again and open up my heart to a new depth of experience.... Fast forward through a free fall of flying in love over distance, a dengue riddled attempted escape from the fates to Mexico and an idealistic heart-driven move from TX to CA in my lil red truck and I had just completed the first chapter of a new life, a life that I was consciously choosing. Like Russian nesting dolls, that chapter lives within the next of my tumultuous landing in LA and the subsequent gypsy lifestyle that emerged from the collapse of what I once thought was my reason for coming to California, that particular flavor of love that knocks our socks off when we allow it.
Out of the ashes, I surfed couches and lived out of my truck for a spell, writing and reflecting on how I'd come to be in such a place in my life. Then came the boat, dilapidated and empty and another chapter began....

Forgive me if i'm rambling today but I just saw the interconnect between all the moments up till now so clearly after my CD Release this past Sunday.  How what I once thought was the end of my world became the birth of my real life, and how this life is literally more amazing and magical than the one I had previously imagined times a trillion. All the discomfort and heartache has been and will continue to be one of the greatest gifts I've ever received,  for without their influence none of this would be possible as it is right now.

Lately I feel a great turning of the page and I make up that I'm not the only one who feels this.
I'm grateful to celebrate and share the sensation of eras ending with this new EP and I trust that years from now we'll be able to look back with limitless compassion at all of our perfect mistakes.

So Grateful for all that came to witness the resolution of so many chapters this weekend and So Inspired to co-create what will be shared next.


Love Y'all, p

So Close....

Above is the graphic for the new record courtesy of the extremely talented Colin Gil.

After what seems like an eternity, this EP is almost ready to be free of me to live in the world on it's own. So many emotions surround this imminent release that it's hard to speak more often than not but I can and will say that I'm grateful for the overflow of patient support that has allowed this record the resources and time to grow into what it has become. SO GRATEFUL for Robin Livingston for helping me produce this and giving me the space to lose my mind and find my heart time and time again during the process. As I continue to learn the art of capturing a songs spirit and working with more talented sorcerers of sound I know things will continue to grow and develop.

In the words of Leonard da Vinci, "Art is never finished, only abandoned." 

I'm offically walking away from this with love in my heart. 

OnlyLove and DeepGratitude, p

Facing what goes bump in the night

Stepping into November, I'm feelin called to check in about where I am in this rapidly changin world.

In that my life has recently entered another tunnel of shadow work, it has become increasingly clear that the archaic model of duality that once motivated my actions is decaying and giving way to something deeper. En route to this newness, I've recently noticed my emotional body return to that of an anxious little boy that's afraid he isn't worthy of receiving what he wants. This boy is no stranger, this boy is the part of me that has been running through the back of my mind undermining dreams and relationships for all of my adult life.

So why am I telling you this?

I've come to believe that before I allow myself to move forward I must first resolve the issues from which I ran, forgive the parts of myself that I projected and vilified, and merge this anxious child with the lovingly confident man I've grown to know.

When the changes I wish to create in this world remain, they will have survived because all of me was complete with what was, not 99%.

So much is happenin on our marble in the dark and the Occupy Movement appears to me as the more visible components of a massive underlying shift. A deep restructuring that many of us have called forth for ages is now birthing itself and this process is not obligated to be comfortable.

Having participated in several of these local Occupy events, I can say I'm grateful to contribute to their expansion as I believe they are some of the first waves of a new kind of revolution.

The one thing I wish to infuse into the Occupy message is this.

Let us be conscious in our dialogue and shift from an US vs THEM conversation into an US conversation. We have such a gift before us.. To receive this gift fully and pass it down to our posterity, we will first be faced with stripping the caustic threads of blame and separation from the blanket of thought that fosters all of our tomorrows. The most courageous of us will begin with themselves.

This is everyone's time to show up, All of Everyone.

So, in this moment I call forth the allowance of as much humor and love imaginable to permeate this experience as I reclaim full empowered accountability for all that is of my life by merging the darkest aspects of my past with the brightest visions of my future.
In the meantime, I'm taking it easy on the kid within and observing him with compassionate eyes.

Lookin forward to gettin this record out soon...

Love Y'all,

p

I Apologize

Okey Dokey Gang!

I Apologize for falling out of integrity with my own word regarding this album.

I promise the record is literally being mastered as I write this and everyone that donated to make this record a reality will be getting some download love by the middle of this month.

This EP has been such a learning experience for me and I'm grateful to feel myself moving forward both as an artist as as a producer. I'm honored by everyone's support and beyond appreciative for y'alls patience.  Budgeting time and money have been such a growth area for me and I trust that the lessons I've learned this time around will help expedite the next record tremendously.

I look forward to wrappin up this loose end in my brain and moving forward.
So much awaits....

OnlyLove,
p